Why is it that the holidays make you miss people who are no longer here? There are several people that I miss right now (in no particular order).
1) My mother-in-law, Chris. She was always full of loving wisdom and there have been times in this past month that I wish I could gain knowledge from her.
2) My grandma. She was a woman that lovingly disciplined me and helped make me into who I am today. I often miss her and wish I could share nursing stories with her, ask her advice on parenting, introduce her to my husband, and just see her hold my son.
3) My grandpa. I want him to try the cookies and fudge that I make from his recipes and get his sweet smile of approval. He was a man of very few words, but his kindness always shined through his eyes.
4) My father-in-law, Gary. I wish he could be here to see what his son is doing with River Park Grace. He would be proud.
5) My uncle Jeff. I would love to have him meet Jude and have him take Jude on boat rides at the lake and make his famous Tony's breadsticks.
6) Elliott. I often wonder what he would look like, what his personality would be like, and how much fun Jude would have with an older sibling.
Although I greatly miss these people, I am thankful for the time that I did have with each one of them. Sometimes I like to just sit and reflect on the memories I have of them. Sometimes those memories bring tears and sometimes they bring a smile. As I rocked Jude to sleep today I told him stories of his family members he will never meet and I hope to continue to do this until he feels like he knew them too.